7:30 in the evening when Kristin Medrano called me.
MEDS: bhea, pwde kba ngaun?
BHEA: saan? anong oras na kaya.
MEDS: camp! kulang kmeng service team.
BHEA: whhhatt!! camp?? wait. kausapin mo si nanay.
(after mkausap...)
MEDS: bhei, okay na. ready kna.
BHEA: bkettt!! pumyag xa???!!!
MEDS: oo!
BHEA: (mern hindrance) weeeh!! meds, i don't know them. i mean your community. wag mko iiwan ha!!
MEDS: it'll be great. magtwala ka. ksama nmn pti si joyce.
BHEA: knkbhan ako. uh, cge nnga. bbye.
Got there earlier than 9pm and still on the aftershock. Super biglaan. Hindi ako ready at all. As in!!! I haven't had the wisdom to know what exactly I'm doing specially when they told me that I'm going to be one of the Discussion Group Leaders (DGL). I haven't had the chance to reflect.
I smiled whenever people look at me trying to hide my hindrance and my mood. I still can't compose myself. I prayed but i can't find the sincerity. On the end of the night, i gladly accepted my situation, my mood, and even the people around me. I gladly reflected that fate hasn't something to do with it, but God's plan does.
1st DAY. (1st night)
After i got back, we were called to meet our group. I've met DANA(my partner) and my members CHLOE,JOY,SHANNON,ZANDRA,MER.
Let me deal with honesty. I can't really figure them out. I can't meet their gaze. I can't tell whether this group is really for me. I can't, I don't know. =| This was the biggest burden I've ever felt. I swear. It made me cry. YES, it DOES. Good thing i have my partner, whom is a relief.
We had to discuss TALK 1 and share. Still there's no good response from them. Even happiness. I let it go hoping that tomorrow will be better.
2ND DAY
Woke up around 5:30am. Worshiped God by 6. (IF I'M NOT MISTAKEN) Had dinner by 7:30. Here's the catch, i only got the chance to wash up by 11, during TALK3.
One by one and chance by chance that i got familiar with my co-service team. I don't even need to adjust.
We are asked to take our rest and prepare for the confession and one to ones session by 3-5. I of course didn't get some rest worried about what to do or what to say on one to ones. I was reflecting.
* ONE TO ONES IS DONE; IT FELT GREAT. I KNOW AND I'M SURE THAT I DID IT RIGHT. *
We're finished by 5 and took our rest until 6. Back to session hall by 6:30 and had our opening worship right after then DINNER TIME. Preparing ourselves for the baptism.
We had our tongues workshop lead by kuya PAO and had to prepare ourselves for the much-awaited baptism. I asked JHA and CASTA to join my group, hail to them. =) Half an hour before we started the renewal, something came up. It was something that upset everyone.
The speaker asked them that if they're ready to commit themselves to God, then stand. But no one did. Minutes after, 3 girls stood up out of 40 participants. (if I'm not mistaken) Time passed, still there is no one standing except those 3. Ate angel called us (DGLs) and told us to pray for them, gave us the chance to sneak at the session hall, forbid us to get the attention of the participants.
I can see some of them sleeping, chatting, and some are somewhat dreaming. I felt pain. It seemed like one to ones didn't do good at all. =| We continue praying and sneaking. After awhile, all of them stood up. God must have touched them.
Doing the baptism, nervousness invaded on me. It was actually my first time and probably the beginning. After all, God saved me and i was able to do it. =))
THE BEST E-NIGHT EVER.
Best because i was able to meet a lot of people and most especially i was able to watch UNYO
doing the jai ho dance. IT WAS FUN. I swear. =D Since Day 1, anxiousness in me is getting faded whenever i get to see unyo. His smile is so full of joy. I can barely breathe because of the nonstop laughter.
He's surely my own brand of laughter.=))
DAY 3.
This one's sad to me because i had to leave early for my family outing. But then again, chances are worth it. Chance to meet a2, chance to experience being one of them, chance to meet and befriend new faces, chance to share my personal experiences with group, chance to meet them and the MOST WORTH of all?
Chance to give time, serve and be closer again with my ever-loving God. =)
