Here I am again. Aside from the fact of almost frayed, I am still being tormented. I don’t understand why this time is harder than the last time while the situation was almost just the same. I don’t want to reconsider but it is really making me as weak as I can be. I don’t want to sound so emo but this is the only way I can breathe.
Things right now in my case has changed a lot. Back then I was so strong facing the same mistake, now I am on my weakest, helpless consciousness. I can’t even literally sleep at night. I don’t sound good anymore. I am like alive without sense.
It was the hardest! Setting up future plans with someone, dreaming “someday”, reassuring you that everything will be fine, promising every single moment will be worth it, and now what? She’s on her own, trashed your every cherished moment in just a snap, disregarded all the future plans she first started to make, don’t even care how worst things are.
Left you barely seeing the truth, left you plagued with different kind of pain. That’s the way it is! That’s always how it goes isn’t it?
You just have to get used to it until one day, you’ll wake up feeling like there’s never happened something worst, and then you smile, and then you find yourself perfectly happy with the one that is meant for you.
